Giving thanks has never proven itself to be so potent.
A few weeks ago I began a fast for the sake of strengthening my meditation and prayer practice. I also wanted to gain discipline with my eating habits by removing the acidic elements. In the beginning food wasn’t the craving, contentment and change was my constant urge of desire. I knew to achieve contentment I had to first find appreciation in the current moments, although the present wasn’t up to my standard of success.
Yes, trusting the process is cute to say and all but the truth of the matter is that ish is hard. There is no doubt in my mind that I will not reach and accomplish my goals, but those bumpy roads leading to the grand land of milk and honeycombs is dry AF. When I say dry I mean it in all aspects of the word. Trapped, impatient, confused, blind, regretful the list goes on and on, each feeling reminds me of the other and encourages the unsettling reminder that I can do better for myself. I had to remind myself that doing better doesn’t mean that you haven’t done all I can with what I have been given.
Finding the silver linings in life creates opportunity to reveal unacknowledged potential. Although I’m not where I want to be totally I have still made so many advances towards my goals. The progressive steps taken to improve my life are created by small victories and those checkpoints come with celebration. I’m not where I want to be but I’m not where I was before, I’m closer to my dreams. Can I get a praise break somebody!?
Long story short, after the fast nothing was different except my attitude towards my life. There wasn’t this majestic shift during the fast or immediately after I finished. I simply gathered the habit of trust. Trusting God, the universe, my love and drive to lead me where I want to be, despite how things may seem. I stopped complaining about my jobs although I had my moments of complete WTFs, I moved through them with grace and appreciation to have the privilege of having a steady income. Then, it all changed, one call changed it all.
I received a phone call for the job I had been praying for, and all I had to do was say thank you for what I had.
Moral of the story … Thank you goes a long way when you concentrate on why you wanted what you have in the beginning. It’s not the end, it’s only the beginning to what you wanted in the end.